What, if anything, would you change about yourself if you could?

-A

-- Amanda (amanda@nonsequitur.net), September 03, 2000

Answers

Myself.

-- Chris Vannoy (revco@wirefire.com), September 04, 2000.

Chris! You cut that shit out RIGHT NOW! I'm serious. You don't want me to fly out there and kick your ass. You won't enjoy it one bit. You're smart, you're funny, if you'd ever update your page... maybe everyone else would see that too.

I'm serious, don't make me do it.

SMOOOOOOOOOOOOOCH, -A

-- Amanda (nonny@nonsequitur.net), September 04, 2000.

my slow metabolism. heh. seriously, it would be my hang-up about my own weight and how i think i don't deserve a relationship because of it. on the flip-side, i want to lose weight and have before, but i keep purposely gaining it back out of fear of others getting too close. ...uh, i guess that's a catch-22 for me. maybe if i could change something about myself it would be best to change the part of me that has me a walking paradox.

-- daniela (daniela@imbroglio.net), September 04, 2000.

I like my self ok, but I would like to go back in time and look more like I did about 3 1/2 years ago... Gosh, has it been that long? Yup, it has. Well, I would. As for other things besides looks, well, I'm sure there are plenty, but the closer I get to 30, the less chance it's gonna happen. I don't think that changing things that other people want me to change will make me much happier anyway. It'll just make them happier. And who cares about "them" anyway :)

-- Vanessa (vanessaf@pacbell.net), September 05, 2000.

Not the easiest of questions, A. Yeah, I would like to change some pieces of my appearance, which I am actively trying to do (and hate every step, rep, and ache of it). I'd also like to do better for myself more often, as opposed to the bizarre need to do for people. I believe you wrote an entry about this, and that you were giving it up...how's THAT going? I think I've made that promise to myself a few times...well, maybe a few dozen times, but seem to slide back to it. I always renew the vow when I get bitten by it, but we all know how that goes sometimes.

-- Raphael (grebq@yahoo.com), September 06, 2000.

"Not the easiest of questions, A. Yeah, I would like to change some pieces of my appearance, which I am actively trying to do (and hate every step, rep, and ache of it)."

Uhhh yeah, me too. But I so hate the gym. Gag... choke... gasp.

"I'd also like to do better for myself more often, as opposed to the bizarre need to do for people. I believe you wrote an entry about this, and that you were giving it up...how's THAT going?"

Ummm... well... I decided that I couldn't stop helping the people I had committed myself to... but that I could avoid taking on new responsibilities.

It's just so hard. I feel good when I help other people. I just don't perceive myself to be as worthy as others I guess.

" I think I've made that promise to myself a few times...well, maybe a few dozen times, but seem to slide back to it. I always renew the vow when I get bitten by it, but we all know how that goes sometimes."

Yes... we do... sigh... let's both try and be better about it... ok? Deal?

-- Amanda (nonny@nonsequitur.net), September 06, 2000.

And now the more realistic answer (if not nearly as smart-assed-ic).

I want my id to think more from me. I want to become more greedy - both emotionally and financially. I want to be more aggressive. I want to believe that everyone is less than me. I want to have a shorter fuse. I want to be surly and nasty. I want to be the biggest bastard in the world.

For all the talk of women wanting the sensitive guy, it's a giant crock of shit. I'm tired of putting other's needs before my own. I'm tired of doing the right thing. I'm tired of being shoved around. I'm tired of being a blip in others' lives.

I want to be the fucking meteor cruising to wipe out the dinosaurs.

-- Chris Vannoy (revco@wirefire.com), September 07, 2000.

If I could change anything...I would change my temper. It is one mean mutha.

-- Sara Michael (sarabara75@earthlink.net), September 20, 2000.

Yeah, I rarely get really angry... but when I do, you don't want to be ANYWHERE near me.

Up until that point, I internalize everything... but it can get pretty bad when the floodgates are opened.

-A

-- Amanda (nonny@nonsequitur.net), September 20, 2000.