What do you wish you could go back to? Who do you wish you could still be with?

And I don't mean what do you regret, it's more *what do you long for*.

-- suzen green (suzen@neuki.com), January 10, 2001

Answers

I think i was born too late. I wish i could go back to live my fun teen-age years thru the 1970's. Either that, or back to last week so i could pay my phonebill on time. One or the other.

-- Mr. Fooel (gonzobiznatch@yahoo.com), January 10, 2001.

I long for the days of innocence and joy that I spent with them. I wish I could go back, back when the most important thing was whether or not our makeshift fort in the woods was hidden well enough. I wish I could go back to the endless days I spent with them, or the special times where he and I would lay in a tight embrass for hours until someone came home.

I miss them both so much, but it's like they've forgotten me. I don't know where the one is and haven't heard from him for over a year and a half now. The other, acts as if I don't exsist, even when we run straight into each other in the hallways; he just keeps on walking while ignoring my hello. Yet, we used to say we were the three muskateers or the inseperable trio... that we'd never be apart. Things change though, it's a part of growing up.

Sometimes I wonder if they ever think about me still and the years we spent together. Sometimes I go stand in the ruins of our old fort in the woods, replaying memories in my mind. I long to be able to turn back time and relive it all again.

Oh, I also wish I could go back to when they made Crystal Pepsi. That shit was good.

-- Heather (chiana@insert.nu), January 10, 2001.

The days when everything was simple are what I long for the most. That sounds so broad, but I believe that once I grew into a young adult everything became more complicated. I began classifying myself an adult after I hit my "monumental" 18th birthday, and it seems that is the period when things started to become more eventful and things took a decided turn. No longer were my feelings unimportant, no longer could I rely on my parents guiding forces, and no longer was I just "another kid." After I graduated high school things became increasingly more tumultous, I had responsibilities that I had never given a second thought to before. My heart also matured and I began to experience heartbreak and the feelings of love. No longer was I young and could avoid the heartache by waving my hand after a semi- serious relationship and proclaiming "it was just a crush." The days of no or little responsibility are gone. When you are young everything is planned for you-, your days are scheduled down to the hour. You are dependent upon your parents and when you make a mistake everyone laughes and assumes that you'll "learn from your mistakes." It's no longer that way anymore. Make a mistake and termination of a job or expulsion from school are your results. No longer can one say that they want to be a doctor one minute and a journalist the next-, it's just not acceptable. Although when we were young we were encouraged to change our minds as much as possible and feel out the infinite possibilities that await us. Gone are the days when we could run around in a rainstorm without a second glance, but attempt that now and people stare at you strangely. And no longer are we young and on the edge of society...now we are society.

I miss what you used to be. I long for the days when life was simple. Although I wouldn't admit it was simple back then, I understand now why my parents constantly used the phrase "you don't know how easy you've got it." Sometimes it breaks my heart to know that there is no going back to a period like that, we're required to be adults and act like it.

I long for simpleness again, as the madness of our current society is sometimes overwhelming.

-- Stephanie (miu@2confident.com), January 10, 2001.

I wish I could go back to my sophomore year in high school. The classes were interesting and not too hard. No college pressures, just a few incredible teachers and a lot of kickass memories.

Sophomore year was the year when I became happily infatuated with the senior boy I always cut class with. We'd leave fifth period, or whatever period that damn vocal class was, and wander to an empty room to talk about life. To talk about his girl problems, whatever.

I was carefree, I wrote for the newspaper, my Honors English class meant the world and more to me. I long for that feeling just once again.

-- Tiffany (mapleberry@hotmail.com), January 10, 2001.

i'm not sure what i would go back too. i'm fully happy with my life right now... although i wouldn't mind going back to the last three months of school. they were the best three months... we had so much fun. but then i think of the stresses of high school life and then i change my mind again.

-- amanda (amanda@shrapnel.org), January 10, 2001.

I long for the days of him. My first love. The days where his face would bring a smile to my face and a jump to my heart. Where his arms would make me so feel so safe and warm. His scent still lingers in the air, his voice still whispering in my ear. When we would talk on the phone, for hours about absolutely nothing and it would be the best part of my day. He brought me love, friendship and safety. We lost each other and our life paths have taken us down separate roads, away from each other. But I still carry a piece of him in my heart.

That time of my life when I knew him was so simple, yet so much more than I could have imagine. It's so unbelievablely true that you don't realize how grateful you are for something until it's gone. I did find that out the hard way. Three years ago, and it still hurts.

-- Ashley C. (ashy@canada.com), January 11, 2001.

I wish I could back to when I had a grasp on all the problems and wanted to make an active effort to solve them with my small 10 year old self. I wish I could go back to the days when I didn't need anyone to create my secret world of creativity and imagination. I suppose I wish I could still be with Tina more often, only friend who truly gets me sometimes. I just wish I could go back to when I had everything so simplified it was hard to not be happy. Now it all seems reversed and I have no idea who the hell I am.

-- Tek (8@lotus.port5.com), January 11, 2001.

i wish i could go back to those days when the only thing that mattered was that we were together. going to sleep in his arms, waking up in his arms, and looking into eachother's eyes and telling the other that we loved them. never take advantage of the time you spend with the person or people who you love, life goes by too fast. some nights you wont know where they are and they don't call you....but that's no reason to get upset, you know in your heart that they still love you. i just want to spend everynight falling asleep in his arms and waking up just the same way. to look into his eyes and say i love you without speaking a word.

-- Jen Hochman (hocjenn@lycoming.edu), January 11, 2001.

I wouldn't go back to anything. Anything now is better than it was then.

-- lisa lumpkin (lisagaill@yahoo.com), January 11, 2001.

I long for more than anything to still be in the embrace of the one person who means the most to me in this world. To be able to hear the rhythmical beat of his heart as we sit snuggled up on the couch together watching old reruns of startrek. To watch him sleep in my arms, oblivious to the rest of world around him. Time never stood still when I wanted it to. Now it never passes as quickly as I long for it to. Part of me doesn't breathe without him.

-- brooke gwen (bg@aquula.nu), January 11, 2001.

I long for the days when girls weren't so dependent on guys. Notice that most every girl here longs for "a guy." Whatever happened to indulging in ourselves and not longing for men? Sheeshhh...guys come and go. I'd love to talk to you all in ten years and see if you still long for the same guy you do now!

-- Crystal (land-ho01@yahoo.com), January 11, 2001.

Hanson concert experience 2000... [OK, so roll your eyes, yes I love Hanson], good music, fun fan, great friends. It was so great that it brings tears of happiness to my eyes just thinking about it. I met one of the greatest people I've known online at it [face to face] and it was just an overall fun and exciting experience... yet gone in an instant. I hate the way that goes.

-- Kirsten (insightly@bombdiggity.com), January 11, 2001.

I'd like to go back. Not to a who anymore, but a feeling. Smiling for no reason. Being happy without having to worry about who next might turn on you. Being content.. relaxed.. needed, needing and loved. Loved, most of all -- the look in someone's eyes as they wake up smiling, looking back into your smiling eyes. Knowing that whatever happens, someone will be there for you, someone will comfort you.. knowing that someone cares about you.

-- Dionysus (Atari@mail1st.com), January 12, 2001.

i'd go back to a couple of weeks ago when i wasn't thinking about what was going to happen - i was just resting my head on his chest and he was playing with my hair. the tv was on mute and everything, silent. every now and then he'd lean down gently to kiss my forehead. i'd go back to that. it was at that time that i was pretending that i didn't know it was going to end and for a while, i even believed it.

-- andrea cody (andi@hotkey.net.au), February 13, 2001.