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Please Lord help me find a way to be able to get Christmas presents from santa for my children. They have been very good and been through alot this past year. I am so depressed right now, I know Christmas isnt about presents but I feel that as a mother I have let my children down. We are having to move also right before Christmas and Because I have been unable to work this year I am feeling so alone. Dear God please give me strength to stay upbeat and positive for my children and not let them know my fears and my feelings of being a failure. In your name I pray. Beagleluv03@aol.com
-- jg (firstname.lastname@example.org), December 16, 2003
I hope you are feeling better. One Christmas several years ago, I was a single mom with 2 beautiful girls, my car broke down, I was out of work and had no relationship at the time. I wanted to give them so much but I had the same struggle that you are talking about. One day I closed my eyes and imagined that I was at the doctor and he told me one of my kids was very ill and might not live. I let myself feel all of the horror and fear that I would fear if that happened. Then I said to myself If only this weren't happening..... Then I opened my eyes and it wasn't. I felt only joy for a long time after that, and things did get better. It was then that I realized that there are so many wealthy people in the world who would give anything to trade places with me because my children are healthy. I hope you are well. I know your email was posted a long time ago.
-- donna kay (email@example.com), April 04, 2004.